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| Time: | 9:29 pm. |
| Mood: |  excited. | | Music: | Soccer game on TV. |
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I found out a few days ago that I was accepted in to the Psychology program at USF St. Pete. I start classes in the Fall and can not wait to begin studying the subject I want to be my career. The campus is downtown right on the water and next to the Dali museum. I've been looking at the website for Student Affairs and it seems like they have a lot of fun activities going on. They have scuba classes as well as parasailing lessons and have boats and jet skis available for rent. I'm glad I applied for this campus rather than the Tampa one because the student body is much smaller (about 3,500) and I've read that the classes are smaller and more open for discussion and debate. And, downtown St. Pete just kicks ass with all of the fun shops and Baywalk and Central Ave in general. Dad was very excited and I went out and bought him a USF DAD bumper sticker he will proudly display on his truck. And, this morning, I went to the pediatrician and had 4 immunizations, including the HPV one that stings like hell! I opted to get the Hepatitis A one and my dad informed me that supposedly Hepatitis is becoming an "epidemic near the Lake Okeechobee (sp?) area." Hm.
I see the attorney's Orthopedist tomorrow and it's supposed to be the visit that, after all his diagnoses have been made, will really begin the lawsuit against City of Dunedin. The paralegal told me that once the Doctor faxes all the papers from tomorrow, the lawyer will then send a letter to Dunedin asking for a certain amount. 75% of these letters end in a settlement and the other portion go to court. I really hope I'm part of the 75%. My neck and intrascapular areas are bothering me and it feels like, especially in the shoulders, it's becoming worse. I have this pain on the R side that begins in the neck near the base of the skull and seems to shoot down to my elbow. Rarely, it goes in to my wrist as well. It makes sense. According to my hypochondriac-induced research, it could very well be nerve damage. I haven't been to the batting cages since March and I'm starting to feel frustrated. Hitting balls was such amazing anger release.
Dad made me go look at apartments today. He insists on helping me out with housing so I don't take out student loans. Ben and I found a really nice place on 77 Ave N and 4th St N where a HUGE 2 bed/2 bath is on special for 644/month if you take out a 13 month lease. It's 10 minutes from campus and has a bus that goes straight there. It's not affiliated with USF so I don't need to worry about all the residents being obnoxious drunk college students. Dad's coming to look at it for himself on Thursday. Before he agreed to look at it, he had to show me his new trick. He found the website where you can search for sexual predators and was so excited to show it to me that I couldn't bring myself to tell him that Aunt Bonnie and I found it four years ago. He thinks it "revolutionary" and was very happy to see that there were no predators in this complex.
And and and...I got a new car! It's a Jetta and I love it because it's almost the exact color of the Corolla (RIP-Best Car Ever 2004-2007). It has all leather and a sunroof and an amazing sound system. Ben likes it because it's Turbo. Tiki man is already on the rear-view mirror too.
Life is looking good.
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Tuesday, August 14th, 2007
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| Time: | 8:55 pm. |
| Mood: | ecstatic. | | Music: | NEW CAR!!!. |
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So my car got totalled last Wednesday. It sucked a lot because I really loved that old piece of shit. It was completely ugly and completely disgusting but it never broke down once on me. It kept on chuggin along...
So, rest in piece you piece of shit but lovely old Corolla with chipping paint and old lady rims and about 130 buttons constantly rattling on the roof.
But, as always when you get rear-ended, there is good news. I paid $4,000 for the car three years ago and the insurance company gave me $3,986 for it yesterday. Ha! I bought a car for $14.
And, the best of it all, I bought a new car today!!! It's a black 2000 civic ex, fucking vtech, sunroof POWER WINDOWS AND LOCKS!!! and it's a manual. Ah, yes, a standard. My little brother actually taught me how to drive a stick a few weeks ago and after I picked it up, I soon realized that I hated automatic. And I feel incredibly bad ass driving standard.
Bonnie has a very pretty new car!
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Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
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| Time: | 8:34 pm. |
| Mood: |  sad. | | Music: | The Wall. |
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R.I.P. Syd Barrett
It's a very sad day.
Is music officially dead?
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Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:34 pm. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | Ani. |
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I'm really starting to suck at college...for real.
I took two summer classes and I'm already seriously considering dropping one of them. I dont know, I just don't think I have the time for it with work and stuff. Plus, most of the students in there are spending like 35-40 hours in the lab a week (it's Photo 1). I guess it isn't too too serious because it's just an elective and I already have a few too many of those. But oh well, I still want to use the dark room and stuff for the rest of the semester..just not for class..if that sounds reasonable.
Everything else seems to be going well, though. Work is better now that I am out of school-age and in the 2's and 3's for the summer. The Boss gave me the choice of working in the mornings with the young kids or afternoons with the school-age during the Fall semester...I haven't decided yet. Seems like a lot of people are back in town from (real) college...Does anyone know if Kevan is back?? Or Sean??
If anyone wants to hang out...you should call on Friday, Saturday or Sunday...If you call on the other days I won't pick up because I'm too busy and then I'll forget to call you on the weekends and by now you all think I'm a big asshole because I never answer the fucking phone. But anyways...I do want to chill..just on days Im not working or in school.
Kerrianne- Now that I have access to a dark room and shit, you should come with me and we can be photographers and develop pictures and stuff...If you're still in to photography.
Anyways..Ben is bleeding and I have to go heal. him.
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Thursday, March 16th, 2006
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| Time: | 12:22 pm. |
| Mood: | hopeful. | | Music: | The Sundays. |
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Spring Break is over and Ben is in Kentucky for his grampa's funeral. I could have gone if it weren't for my father insisting that I stay because his business trip leaves nobody to watch the children...I should have said no to him, but I didn't. Why? Because I'm too attached to my father emotionally, financially, everything. Ben is 20 today. It feels strange. I can't quite put my finger to why, though. Maybe because with Ben turning 20, I realize that he very well could be the person I grow old with. It feels good, yes. But it's also scary because in so many ways I still feel 15. Like adulthood will never come and I'll never have my own house or kids or bills to pay. And now, so suddenly, I realize that I could be married in five years? Wow.
Maybe I'm just watching waayyyyy too much Sex and the City.
Anyways...School needs to end. Clay needs to be hired so Im not left alone with 30 children and Ben needs to get his ass home. Dad needs to pay me for the kids making my life absolute hell and I really need a vacation.
10 months for Ben and I a week ago...amazing, huh? Me? Serious relationship with a person I actually care about and haven't cheated on or ever had the slightest urge to? It stuns me, too.
Talked to Eddie last night for two hours. I have such respect for him...an awesome fucking person. And if you haven't met him yet, he's an old man from Trinidad who is very good friends with dad. He rocks everyhting. You should meet him, you'd adore Eddie. Everybody does.
I'm off to work. Hopefully Holly will come over after I get off and help me bake a cake.
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Saturday, February 11th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:03 am. |
| Mood: |  sleepy. | | Music: | none bitch. |
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So tonite was fun. I got a bit drunk with Bens friends and sat around Gabe's house for a while. It passed the time until Ben gets home, so I suppose it was worth it entirely. But now I'm redy to just pass out. I pulled an all nighter last night because I had to bring Lauren to school and I'm shocked I'm still conscious. This week is almost over...yay!
Well.
Maybe I'll go pass out.
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Tuesday, February 7th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:12 pm. |
| Mood: | sad. | | Music: | Interpol!. |
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So Ben actually left yesterday morning. It was very sad. And now Im so very very lonely.
I decided to stay in tonight...and probably every night this week. It's sad and pathetic, but I really don't have much of an interest in doing anything at all with Ben gone. With that said, I've realized these past two days that I have no more friends left. Well, a few but they're all off to college or busy working. And the people Ben and I hang out with are all his friends. I keep wondering if I stopped talking to my friends I had because in the back of my mind, I knew they were leaving and if I indulged myself in one person who was sure to stay here I would avoid getting hurt. I dont know. It's like my cheating habits. I only cheated on most of my ex's to assure myself if he ever hurt me, I would be able to say I hurt him first. Yes, I know, deceptive and pathetic. But in a sick and twisted way, wasn't it clever?...No.
Anyways, I cut my hair off. It's up to my shoulders now. I don't much like it, I think I resemble a twelve year old boy. But it's just hair and it will grow back. Though, it will surely take at least a year to get back the 8 inches I hacked off. Oh well.
I think I'll go sulk now. Or play with my dog. Or something to entertain myself until Saturday.
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Sunday, January 29th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:03 am. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | Bloc Party!!. |
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Yesterday was an amazing day. On the way to OldNavy, Ben and I pulled up next to this pseudo-macho looking guy. We turned down our music only to realize that this guy is listening to....NSYNC??? Wow. I guess he didn't know that it's impossible to be any level of cool or macho or manly while listening to boy bands.
Then we went to a yard sale and Ben impulsively bought a juicer. Yes, a juicer. And as I was asking him why he would do such a silly thing, what do we pass by on the side of the road? That's right, a whole box of grapefruits with FREE writteb across it. Hmm...
But anyway, Ben leaves tomorrow at 5am for Kentucky for 6 days....6 days. I feel my nerves getting worse as the hours get closer. I'm fine with staying here at his house without him and everything (or am I?), but just being away from him for so long will suck. I don't know, maybe it will be good for us or something. Who knows?
I think I'll go wake him up.
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Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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| Time: | 10:45 am. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | Interpol. |
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I saw Vanilla Sky for the first time last night. Needless to say, it proved to be quite amazing.
Back in school. Taking Comp 2 and developmental psychology at gibbs campus and math at clearwater. Which means, Christina, Mondays we should start having breffast together.
Oh, and I got my cell phone re-activated. Same number and such.
Ben is still asleep, probably avoiding our shopping day I've planned for today. Hehe.
Holly, if you're reading this and you're back in town, you better give me a fucking call. I love you.
And Lydia, my hopes are high that you got it in the butt.
I'm hungry.
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Friday, December 23rd, 2005
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This is my last day of hell. This is my last day of hell. This is my last day of hell.
I thought this week would never end.
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Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
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| Time: | 5:33 pm. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | a dumb movie. |
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This week has been hell and the hell will not end until it is Friday and I have sacrificed 50 hours of my life to Appleseeds (aka hell). Though I suppose working that much this week will make up for the PAID WEEK OF VACATION I have next week. I wasn't aware that paid vacation is possible until you have worked somewhere for an insane amount of years. But I feel very sophisticated getting paid for sitting around and smoking pot. Next week will be better. I won't have to work or go to school and christmas will be over. Thank fucking god.
I got my grades today from the past semester...
A in Ethics
A in Abnormal Psychology
B in Humanities
B in Sociology
Not too bad I guess. Would have preferred straight A's, but I guess I'm ok with it seeing as I skipped close to a third of classes.
Hope I get to see people from high school this break. Kevan, Sean, etc. I guess it's kind of hard, though, because nobody has my new number. If you want it, just IM me and ask.(bad327religion)
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Sunday, December 4th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:49 am. |
| Mood: | bahumbug. |
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If you haven't already noticed, my cell phone has busted. You can call Ben's house to get me, or wait until I get a new phone.
Christmas gives me mixed feelings nowadays. One side of me wants to embrace the warm fuzzy feeling everyone seems to behold during the season. But another side of me finds the credit card spending and shopping-crazed smiles unnerving. The newspapers are filled with SALE SALE SALE! and every plaza is jam packed with cars. When did the holidays become an excuse to further ourselves into debt? Why do we feel it necessary to indulge in overpriced gifts and gluttony in order to enjoy Christmas? When did it become the rule to buy everyone we know a gift? For the past 4 years, I have asked my family for nothing for christmas. I think I would rather enjoy it without the stress of presents.
I suppose after age 12, I could not understand why we can not enjoy Christmas without the americanization. Why winter sales and weekend door busters have become such an excitement and necessity for everyone. I'd just assume decorating a tree and drinking cider would be enough. I think that Christmas should be about embrcing our loved ones for who they are rather than obsessing about what we can buy them to show our love. Maybe nowadays, a price ensures how much we care.
Fuck that, I boycott. Again.
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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:47 am. |
| Mood: |  good. |
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Six months yesterday with Ben. Amazing how fast it's gone by. Especially since three of those months I have been living here.
Sex and the City has currently consumed my life. We rented the first and fourth seasons and finished them in a week and a half. Now it is on to the third. We're half-way through. All-time favorite show.
Cramps kept me up last night. Which explains why Im awake 4 hours before I need to be. My new sleep schedule is amazing, though, usually. 3am-noon routinely really works...with sleeping in until 1pm on the weekends. I sleep better than I did at home, probably because the man outside my window no longer bothers me.
I hope I get sick soon so I can miss work. :)
I miss Holly...I wonder if she and Bob remember that we still have a killin' spree to go on. Bitches better. I can't do this alone.
I have to go to CVS now to get conditioner and tampons.
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Friday, November 4th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:18 pm. |
| Mood: |  okay. | | Music: | bleh. |
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Dad, the children AND my dog are in Naples for the week starting tomorrow afternoon. The plan is to stay there and "house sit." It probably wont last though. I'll end up getting homesick and going back to Ben's. But for now, I miss my house and Im excited to be there for a bit. Though, its sad that Harley wont be able to keep me company...and dad surely brought the marijuana.
Last November when Dad left for Naples for a week, it was so different than it is now. Uncle Bob had just moved in and his trailer was still out back. Harley didn't exist and I had just started dating Will. The crew sat out back at night and we smoked it up as Uncle Bob passed in and out. Jeff was still an ok person and Will was...Will. Holly was still here and Bob had just moved. Livi and Alex and everyone else were still at PHU. Everything seemed so carefree. Life proved easy and fun and free from consequence. Odd how things change. And how I have changed as well.
I was thinking last night about how much I miss all of you fuckers. If you still even read this thing. How easy it used to be to socialize. Now it just seems like a chore with all of these peple I barely know and dont care to try to know. They just dont begin to compare to Holly and Livi and Alex and Kevan and Sean and Ker and Kaitlynn and everyone else who Im too lazy to write out. It sucks that I couldn't stay in 11th grade forever.
It sucks that I had to lose touch with so many amazing people I still love so very much.
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Monday, October 31st, 2005
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| Time: | 10:40 am. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | dogs barking outside the window. |
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The past five Holiday seasons have been months of emptiness and depression, desperate attempts at filling the voids that are supposed to be filled during October, November and December...Happiness is supposed to be inevitable. It's just become the norm to dread this time of year. But yesterday was an awakening. I realized that I do have something to look forward to this year. This year could be different. I could experience that same Holiday cheer as everyone else does this year.
I went to Target with Lauren and bought Winston a Darth Vador costume. His little tiny tail wags out the back and the helmet is priceless. Ben, his mom, his sister and I sat on the living room floor and laughed. We laughed our asses off and this was when it hit me. I have hope for this year. I am excited. Because I have grown to adore this family and this boy and this new life I am leading nowadays. Ben and I went out late at night and stole a pumpkin from a church. We came home and carved out the eyes and nose and mouth. The candle went in and not only did the pumpkin illuminate, but so did I. I've found love. I've been set free.
My only hope is that this new light can last through Christmas and New Years and although I have to allow myself some sadness, maybe..just maybe, I can feel this good for the next three months. It's the little things that must count and each day must be faced with a fresh face and fresh attitude. It will be hard, but deep down I know that this year will be different. It will be a new start to an amazing path that will lead me to fullfillment and happiness. At least that's what Dad says.
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Monday, October 24th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:37 pm. |
| Mood: |  cold. | | Music: | gabe ranting in the living room. |
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It was an amazing weekend. Holly came home and I got to see her multiple times. Saturday night was JUST like old times and I felt so happy being with her. For the first time in a while, we got to spend some time together and just shoot the breeze...like we used to do. What used to keep me sane and girly and exuberant. Though, I desperately miss her again already. Next weekend at New College we will hopefully see eachother again. And I got to see Christina on Friday and we got high. Double the pleasure this weekend.
Did some homework today and cleaned out and Ben and I's room a bit. We have a floor! We all went down to the beach tonight and the pier was amazing. The cold wind was amazing...Winter in general rocks. I really won't miss the summer heat. At all. Thank you, Wilma, for the day off of school and work.
<3 <3 <3
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Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
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So...Holly came home on Thursday and my troubles magically disappeared. It was amazing. How I have missed my dear, dear slut of a wife.
Hoping the hurricane will give us a direct hit, as work and school will be cancelled in that case.
Dad paid for my ticket and credit card payment, and now my money problems are gone. Thanks, pops.
Got slightly drunk last night...just a preview for the wastedness that will occur tonite...after the AA meeting.
Must call Holly so we can get our oil changed. And stuff.
Holly Holly Holly...
I think I'm in love <3
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Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:20 pm. |
| Mood: | complacent. | | Music: | eehh. |
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I got my first tickets today. It was sad and I cried.
42 in a 25 and no seatbelt = $250 and traffic school at 9am on Saturday.
But what makes me happy is the fact that I get to see my wife this weekend. SOOO HAPPY. I miss Holly Holly.
School sucks and work is exhausting and Im contemplating dying. Of an infectious disease.
Night
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Monday, September 26th, 2005
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| Time: | 9:48 pm. |
| Mood: |  giddy. | | Music: | random shit at davids house. |
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Well, Im leaving in about an hour to scoop Lyle up from the airport because SURPRISE! HES MOVING BACK!!!
Awesome.
Looks as though he is staying with Ben and I for the night and then it's off to Jimbo's. I dont know if I, running on only three hours of sleep in the past 2 days, can handle this type of excitement. Actually, I probably can. I will!
Working noon-6 now three days a week and then 2-6 two more days. And school full time....busy busy. But most definetly superbly content.
Mr. Horn's email made me sooooo happy!
My deathcab shit came in the mail today! yay!
That seems to be sufficient.
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Friday, September 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 9:42 pm. |
| Mood: | happy. | | Music: | I love you Kerrianne!. |
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I would like to wish a very good friend of mine, Kerrianne obviously, a very happy birthday.
20 already...7 more to go.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3...<3 and one for good luck
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